At the beginning of all this, I never imagined that I would make it through to this point. I felt like my world was tumbling down and after Mom died I realized that there was no where but up for me! I kind of think that some of the things that have happened to me this year, have made me stronger and more of a fighter. I feel like I want to prove something to me and everyone else. Whether it's a stubborn streak in me or just the fighter, I want to show people that no matter what life throws you, you have to make the most of it.
Make the most of it? Really?? How do you make the most of Cancer or losing important people in your life? Well, I have had so much time to sit and ponder things that I realize what is important at this point in my life. It's the little things, the people that are here now, thinking of what the future holds and all the memories of the past, that I have. A lot of people go through life worrying about things they can't change, prioritizing jobs and success at the top of their list and living like robots. Getting up each day, getting ready for work, going to work, coming home full of stress, yelling at their kids, yelling at their husband/wives, watching mindless television in silence and then going to bed...only to start it all over again the next day. If those people would just slow down their lives and really dissect each moment, they would realize that all the things that they are doing, don't "really" count. What counts is being able to get up each morning, appreciating your family and friends, and keeping those people at the top of your priority list. Saying "I love you" to your husband and kids, not because it's habit but because your heart would be empty if they weren't here with you. I don't really know where I am going with this, I just felt I needed to write it.
So Friday is #4...who would have thunk it? I look back and think of how I was feeling in June when I first found the lump. I was scared and weak with emotion. I thought, this is going to be a long, hard road. Look at me now, at treatment 4 and feeling not so bad! This treatment will be with my new drugs so I am not sure how my body will accept it but I am hopeful that I will not have too many of the side effects. I am excited and a little overwhelmed that after this Friday I will have only two treatments left. It has been a long journey and a tough one too but my husband and kids keep me going. Each day I wake up and am thankful for a day of feeling well, thankful for Keil getting up early to sit and watch the morning news with me, thankful for Cole getting up and asking for his cereal and giving me a kiss and hug, thankful for Jason getting up and helping me get the kids ready for school. I am thankful for all I have and I know some of you might think that is hard to believe, that I would be thankful for all that God has served me this year. But I am just thankful for those little things that make me happy, which in turn, make me stronger and make my day!
Be strong, be positive and please pray for me!
Wednesday, 28 November 2012
Friday, 23 November 2012
BOOB!!
I am so excited, overwhelmed and feeling whole! I went this morning to get fitted for a prosthesis. I thought I would have to wait for a few weeks but they had "my size" in stock and I am now wearing a bra and I have a "boob"!
After finding out that I had breast cancer and making the decision to have my breast removed, I never looked back! I never "mourned" my breast, although the doctors say that will come. I got used to not having a breast and got used to not wearing a bra. I got used to the look of being flat on one side! I always knew that I would have reconstruction but knew it would be far down the road for me. I opted not to get a prosthesis because I really felt that it didn't bother me, the way that I looked. Just last week, I decided that I would get a prosthesis...not because I think I am not beautiful, but because I wanted to feel "normal" again. I want to feel as much like myself as I can!
Well, let me just say...I am over the moon! I met with Dianne this morning and she brought out a selection of prosthesis for me to look at, to feel and try on. Then she brought me numerous bras to choose from. After I put the first bra on with my prosthesis, I couldn't believe the overwhelming emotions! I wanted to cry and laugh all at the same time! Once I saw myself in the mirror, I realized how much my breast once made me feel whole, once made me feel beautiful! I am crying just writing this..you can't even imagine how I am feeling! I am so happy I could scream!! Can you hear me? LOL It was so worth the money...just like my wig...now I feel like "me"! :)
Be strong, be positive and continue to pray for me...because I feel the love! :)
After finding out that I had breast cancer and making the decision to have my breast removed, I never looked back! I never "mourned" my breast, although the doctors say that will come. I got used to not having a breast and got used to not wearing a bra. I got used to the look of being flat on one side! I always knew that I would have reconstruction but knew it would be far down the road for me. I opted not to get a prosthesis because I really felt that it didn't bother me, the way that I looked. Just last week, I decided that I would get a prosthesis...not because I think I am not beautiful, but because I wanted to feel "normal" again. I want to feel as much like myself as I can!
Well, let me just say...I am over the moon! I met with Dianne this morning and she brought out a selection of prosthesis for me to look at, to feel and try on. Then she brought me numerous bras to choose from. After I put the first bra on with my prosthesis, I couldn't believe the overwhelming emotions! I wanted to cry and laugh all at the same time! Once I saw myself in the mirror, I realized how much my breast once made me feel whole, once made me feel beautiful! I am crying just writing this..you can't even imagine how I am feeling! I am so happy I could scream!! Can you hear me? LOL It was so worth the money...just like my wig...now I feel like "me"! :)
Be strong, be positive and continue to pray for me...because I feel the love! :)
Tuesday, 20 November 2012
What's Up Next!
The weekend turned out to be busy for us. Jason, with my direction, put up the Christmas decorations outside. I did some of the work but mostly sat and directed him, passing him hangers when he needed them. It was such a beautiful weekend here! I know, some of you are probably thinking I am crazy putting up my decorations this early but I figure if I pick at it (trying to save my energy), then I should be finished by Christmas!
I love Christmas so much!! I have awesome memories from growing up. Mom was a lover of Christmas too! She would have the house decorated with the latest styles. I saw feather trees way before everyone else! Her tree was always beautifully decorated. She took pride in all her decorations. I know that my sister will do the house and Mom's memory justice this Christmas. She will ensure that things are just the way Mom would want them!
Enough about Christmas...for now! LOL So, my next treatment is scheduled for November 30th. This will be my first treatment with my new drugs. This second stage of my treatment will involve drugs that will make my bones, joints and muscles pain. Also, I will be receiving a drug called Herceptin, which I will have every three weeks for a year. This is a drug that is used in Breast Cancer patients that are HER 2+. Again, HER 2+ means that I had an aggressive form of BC...notice I said HAD! Yup, that's right, I am still on the notion that this is just an insurance policy! Also, this treatment will involve 7 days of injections of a drug that will help keep my white blood cell counts up. So, these next treatments are so different from my first that I am not sure how my body is going to react. The nurses say that I won't have the nausea like I had but I will feel like I am getting the flu...very tired, achy and just overall blah! Should be interesting!! Oh, and to top it all off, I will probably have weight gain with these drugs....the good news just never ends! :) I don't care, as long as it works!
Thank you once again for all your support! I have a wonderful group of friends and the most amazing family! Love you all xo
A special thank you to Gloria, Sandra and Colleen for the beautiful flowers! Love and miss you special ladies! xo
Be strong, be positive and please continue to pray for me!
Thursday, 15 November 2012
Angels Wings!
Another angel get's her wings!
Today I got a call around 6:30am from my sister telling me that my Aunt Linda passed away. Linda is my mother's sister. She has been dealing with, what else, Cancer for the past few months. She was so strong during Mom's funeral and very optimistic but I think she knew then that she wasn't going to make it through this horrible disease. She was brave and strong for all of us during our difficult times.
Linda was always there during our family ups and downs. When my sister was diagnosed with Leukemia at the age of two, my aunt was one of the ones to travel back and forth to Halifax for treatments. She was there supporting my Mom and helping out whenever she could. She was always the voice of reason and the tell it as it is kind of girl. We have talked quite a few times after my treatments started and she has given me lots of advice to help me through it all. I know she was so worried about me and was always brave and strong when sharing her thoughts and advice.
I remember when I was little, Mom would take my brother and I to Linda's for visits. We loved going and playing with our cousins! I always hated leaving...I just always felt good being there. When she worked at the bank, Mom would always take me in for a visit and I just loved seeing Linda on the other side of the tellers desk. She was always so good to us. Later, as we all grew up, we would meet at her place on Christmas Eve for drinks and the most delicious treats. I always have fun when I am with the MacFarlanes! They always make you laugh, freak you out with ghost stories (family favorite) and just make you feel loved! I always leave their company feeling good!
This summer they were all there helping out when Mom passed. Frankie and Todd were there to share their stories that just cracked us all up! The combination of the two is a force to be reckoned with! My beautiful cousin Karla...well she is just that! She has a soul that radiates beauty! My aunt and uncle did an amazing job! They created three beautiful children that I am very proud to call my family!
My uncle Frank is the quiet, stand back and let Linda take charge kind of guy! He loves to laugh and share stories too! My heart aches for him today and for the days ahead. I know that he will be fine because he is surrounded by so much love! Even though I am sad by this event in my life, I am also grateful that I have so many awesome memories of my aunt!
RIP my lovely angel! I know Mom was waiting with open arms! Love you forever and always!
Never take life for granted!
Today I got a call around 6:30am from my sister telling me that my Aunt Linda passed away. Linda is my mother's sister. She has been dealing with, what else, Cancer for the past few months. She was so strong during Mom's funeral and very optimistic but I think she knew then that she wasn't going to make it through this horrible disease. She was brave and strong for all of us during our difficult times.
Linda was always there during our family ups and downs. When my sister was diagnosed with Leukemia at the age of two, my aunt was one of the ones to travel back and forth to Halifax for treatments. She was there supporting my Mom and helping out whenever she could. She was always the voice of reason and the tell it as it is kind of girl. We have talked quite a few times after my treatments started and she has given me lots of advice to help me through it all. I know she was so worried about me and was always brave and strong when sharing her thoughts and advice.
I remember when I was little, Mom would take my brother and I to Linda's for visits. We loved going and playing with our cousins! I always hated leaving...I just always felt good being there. When she worked at the bank, Mom would always take me in for a visit and I just loved seeing Linda on the other side of the tellers desk. She was always so good to us. Later, as we all grew up, we would meet at her place on Christmas Eve for drinks and the most delicious treats. I always have fun when I am with the MacFarlanes! They always make you laugh, freak you out with ghost stories (family favorite) and just make you feel loved! I always leave their company feeling good!
This summer they were all there helping out when Mom passed. Frankie and Todd were there to share their stories that just cracked us all up! The combination of the two is a force to be reckoned with! My beautiful cousin Karla...well she is just that! She has a soul that radiates beauty! My aunt and uncle did an amazing job! They created three beautiful children that I am very proud to call my family!
My uncle Frank is the quiet, stand back and let Linda take charge kind of guy! He loves to laugh and share stories too! My heart aches for him today and for the days ahead. I know that he will be fine because he is surrounded by so much love! Even though I am sad by this event in my life, I am also grateful that I have so many awesome memories of my aunt!
RIP my lovely angel! I know Mom was waiting with open arms! Love you forever and always!
Never take life for granted!
Wednesday, 14 November 2012
Ugh!!
Yes, it's been a tough one!
Had my treatment on Friday and I am taking a long time to bounce back from this one. They decided to give me Gravol by IV after my treatment and it knocked me out! I slept on the way home and crawled into bed for the rest of the night. Instead of taking my regular anti nausea drugs, I decided to take gravol for the remainder of the weekend. It worked for me! A lot better this time with not as much nausea and a tolerable headache. Although I didn't have a lot of nausea I am really run down this time.
I have been weak and feeling even more nauseated as the days go on. Having a lot of stomach cramps and just overall not feeling well. Heartburn, which is a side effect of the Chemo has plagued me this time too. I got a prescription for that but it gives me the shakes. I am just so tired of not feeling well! Tired of not feeling myself!
You know, I go on facebook everyday...sometimes numerous times a day because I am bored. But there is one thing that I am noticing lately with all my friends...they are not happy! They are stressed because of Christmas coming, ranting because they got cut off by someone at the store or just complaining about the sun not shining! My sister decided a couple of weeks ago that she wasn't going to go on facebook anymore because it was too depressing. I am starting to think the same thing. You know, it's easy to complain about these things when you don't really have anything to complain about! Be thankful that you are healthy, that your children are healthy and that you were able to wake up this morning! I would never judge someone for what they think is their "problems" in life but really, people need to start realizing what life really is. It's a gift, a precious gift that should never be taken for granted.
Before my diagnosis, I complained that I was too busy, that I didn't feel I got enough help around the house, etc....but now, I realize all those things mean nothing! Really, in the grand scheme of things, does it really mean anything? You control your life, your reactions to situations. You can step back from your life and slow things down if you really want to! You don't have to get upset with the person that cut you off...they aren't wasting time thinking about you, so why should you expend all this energy worrying about them! I think that we can all make small steps to change the way that we behave, react and live! I know all of this has opened my eyes to so many things. The way that I live is going to change, it has changed! I worry now about making myself better for my kids and Jason and being happy! Everyday may not be a "happy" day but I plan to have more of those than days complaining about things that don't matter!
Be strong, stay positive and pray for me!
Had my treatment on Friday and I am taking a long time to bounce back from this one. They decided to give me Gravol by IV after my treatment and it knocked me out! I slept on the way home and crawled into bed for the rest of the night. Instead of taking my regular anti nausea drugs, I decided to take gravol for the remainder of the weekend. It worked for me! A lot better this time with not as much nausea and a tolerable headache. Although I didn't have a lot of nausea I am really run down this time.
I have been weak and feeling even more nauseated as the days go on. Having a lot of stomach cramps and just overall not feeling well. Heartburn, which is a side effect of the Chemo has plagued me this time too. I got a prescription for that but it gives me the shakes. I am just so tired of not feeling well! Tired of not feeling myself!
You know, I go on facebook everyday...sometimes numerous times a day because I am bored. But there is one thing that I am noticing lately with all my friends...they are not happy! They are stressed because of Christmas coming, ranting because they got cut off by someone at the store or just complaining about the sun not shining! My sister decided a couple of weeks ago that she wasn't going to go on facebook anymore because it was too depressing. I am starting to think the same thing. You know, it's easy to complain about these things when you don't really have anything to complain about! Be thankful that you are healthy, that your children are healthy and that you were able to wake up this morning! I would never judge someone for what they think is their "problems" in life but really, people need to start realizing what life really is. It's a gift, a precious gift that should never be taken for granted.
Before my diagnosis, I complained that I was too busy, that I didn't feel I got enough help around the house, etc....but now, I realize all those things mean nothing! Really, in the grand scheme of things, does it really mean anything? You control your life, your reactions to situations. You can step back from your life and slow things down if you really want to! You don't have to get upset with the person that cut you off...they aren't wasting time thinking about you, so why should you expend all this energy worrying about them! I think that we can all make small steps to change the way that we behave, react and live! I know all of this has opened my eyes to so many things. The way that I live is going to change, it has changed! I worry now about making myself better for my kids and Jason and being happy! Everyday may not be a "happy" day but I plan to have more of those than days complaining about things that don't matter!
Be strong, stay positive and pray for me!
Thursday, 8 November 2012
Fingers Crossed!
I have been feeling a lot better this week. Not as tired and feeling like I have a bit more energy.
Tomorrow is my treatment day! I am hoping that my counts will be up and I can receive my Chemo. I will be so disappointed if I can't get it. I have been good all week....sitting around doing nothing and looking at the dust and dirt building up around me! I have toys from one end of my house to the other and dust bunnies living under my tables...which I'll be more than happy to start charging rent! LOL It's not that important!! I was going to step out today and get a few groceries but Jason was adamant this morning, that I don't get off the couch! He can be pretty forceful when he wants to be!
In fact, Jason has been absolutely amazing. He has been working hard all day and then coming home to cater to me and the boys. I have been helping with dinner and clean up but most nights he does it for me...the clean up. Then he's off to Keil's room to help with homework (which is usually 2 hours each night). I do Cole's homework because it's usually not that much and I can understand English better than French (Keil is in French Immersion). Then, after the kids are in bed, it's our time and really Jason's time to relax. I don't know what I would do without him. It makes me really proud to be his wife and to have him in my life. I am sure that he didn't sign up for this but he did sign up for in sickness and in health! :) He probably thought fetching a bucket when I have a hang over was the "in sickness" part and buying me apples instead of chips for the "in health" part! LOL I just wanted everyone to know how great he is...if you didn't already know!
So, tomorrow is the day...fingers crossed! :0)
Be strong, be positive and pray for me tomorrow!
Tomorrow is my treatment day! I am hoping that my counts will be up and I can receive my Chemo. I will be so disappointed if I can't get it. I have been good all week....sitting around doing nothing and looking at the dust and dirt building up around me! I have toys from one end of my house to the other and dust bunnies living under my tables...which I'll be more than happy to start charging rent! LOL It's not that important!! I was going to step out today and get a few groceries but Jason was adamant this morning, that I don't get off the couch! He can be pretty forceful when he wants to be!
In fact, Jason has been absolutely amazing. He has been working hard all day and then coming home to cater to me and the boys. I have been helping with dinner and clean up but most nights he does it for me...the clean up. Then he's off to Keil's room to help with homework (which is usually 2 hours each night). I do Cole's homework because it's usually not that much and I can understand English better than French (Keil is in French Immersion). Then, after the kids are in bed, it's our time and really Jason's time to relax. I don't know what I would do without him. It makes me really proud to be his wife and to have him in my life. I am sure that he didn't sign up for this but he did sign up for in sickness and in health! :) He probably thought fetching a bucket when I have a hang over was the "in sickness" part and buying me apples instead of chips for the "in health" part! LOL I just wanted everyone to know how great he is...if you didn't already know!
So, tomorrow is the day...fingers crossed! :0)
Be strong, be positive and pray for me tomorrow!
Monday, 5 November 2012
Taking Care of Me!
I have no idea how I am going to do this! Sitting around all week, just relaxing and avoiding people...this is not going to be good!
We all work really hard, being professionals, being mothers/fathers/wives/husbands and we always say we are too busy to relax. We say we never have enough time to just sit down and relax. Crazy when you are told by your doctor to do just that and you have an issue with it! I guess because I feel good otherwise, it's hard to just sit here and watch TV all day...well not all day because I am still very tired and I do have to nap during the day too. This is going to be a tough week but I know in the end it is just one more step to making me healthy!
I received an email from a friend last night that really changed my thoughts on things. First, a lot of friends have been asking if they can come visit me or if I can go for lunch. I so appreciate everyone caring so much and wanting to keep me preoccupied with lunches and visits. I have been meeting up with some people and having people visit but after my friends email and reading some of the information the hospital gave me, I am going to have to pass on these offers. You see, my friends mother was diagnosed with cancer and was going through treatments but continued to do the everyday activities that made her happy. Not only made her happy but they were things that she felt she had to do....running errands, visiting friends and family. Unfortunately she developed two infections within a short period of each other and eventually died from those infections, not the cancer. Now after reading this email, I didn't think "why is my friend telling me this?" "Is she trying to upset me?"...no, that's not what I thought at all. What I thought was "wow, she really cares about me!" "She really wants me to get better and not jeopardize my health!"
So, I have decided that I am going to "hibernate" for the next few months. I am not going to sit in my house all day everyday for the next few months but I am going to avoid situations that could potentially cause infection. My doctors and all the reading that I have done, have indicated that this is the best solution for the cold and flu season. I figure I would rather "hibernate" for a few months than "hibernate" for life! My life is too precious and I am going to do everything that I can to make sure it lasts for at least another 40+ years!
So, I would like to thank my friend (you know who you are) and let you know that "sorry, I can't" is now in my vocabulary! We have to take care of ourselves first before we can take care of anyone else! :)
Be strong, be positive and pray for me!
We all work really hard, being professionals, being mothers/fathers/wives/husbands and we always say we are too busy to relax. We say we never have enough time to just sit down and relax. Crazy when you are told by your doctor to do just that and you have an issue with it! I guess because I feel good otherwise, it's hard to just sit here and watch TV all day...well not all day because I am still very tired and I do have to nap during the day too. This is going to be a tough week but I know in the end it is just one more step to making me healthy!
I received an email from a friend last night that really changed my thoughts on things. First, a lot of friends have been asking if they can come visit me or if I can go for lunch. I so appreciate everyone caring so much and wanting to keep me preoccupied with lunches and visits. I have been meeting up with some people and having people visit but after my friends email and reading some of the information the hospital gave me, I am going to have to pass on these offers. You see, my friends mother was diagnosed with cancer and was going through treatments but continued to do the everyday activities that made her happy. Not only made her happy but they were things that she felt she had to do....running errands, visiting friends and family. Unfortunately she developed two infections within a short period of each other and eventually died from those infections, not the cancer. Now after reading this email, I didn't think "why is my friend telling me this?" "Is she trying to upset me?"...no, that's not what I thought at all. What I thought was "wow, she really cares about me!" "She really wants me to get better and not jeopardize my health!"
So, I have decided that I am going to "hibernate" for the next few months. I am not going to sit in my house all day everyday for the next few months but I am going to avoid situations that could potentially cause infection. My doctors and all the reading that I have done, have indicated that this is the best solution for the cold and flu season. I figure I would rather "hibernate" for a few months than "hibernate" for life! My life is too precious and I am going to do everything that I can to make sure it lasts for at least another 40+ years!
So, I would like to thank my friend (you know who you are) and let you know that "sorry, I can't" is now in my vocabulary! We have to take care of ourselves first before we can take care of anyone else! :)
Be strong, be positive and pray for me!
Saturday, 3 November 2012
Well That Explains It!
My last post I noted how tired I was during the week and that I just couldn't seem to bounce back. Well my appointment yesterday explained why that was happening.
I went for my Chemo treatment yesterday at 8:30am. I had my blood work done and after waiting an hour for results the doctor told me I couldn't receive my Chemo because my Neutrophils were too low. Neutrophils are types of mature white blood cells which fight off infection. If I were to receive Chemo when these are low, I would get really sick and my body would take a lot longer to recover. I asked the nurse if it was something that I did and she said no but that I do have to rest more. I have been doing a lot lately! I have been mowing the lawn, running errands, cleaning the house and getting ready for Halloween. I did a lot of that my second week after my last Chemo. I was too tired last week to do much of anything, but I still did some running around and cleaning. The nurse told me I have to do NOTHING all week and they will check my counts again on Friday, November 9th. This totally sucks because it was a milestone for me! It was my third and final treatment of FEC (the type of Chemo that makes me really sick). I just want to stay on schedule and get this over with! This is another reason why I can't really see people because it could compromise my counts and then prolong my treatments. I just can't take that risk! So like I said, I am scheduled for treatment this Friday and hopefully my counts will be high enough to get it.
I met another mother at the hospital yesterday that has breast cancer too. She is 41 and has a 7 year old daughter and a 5 year old son. She found the lump a couple of months ago and when the doctor did an ultrasound and mammogram, the ultrasound showed something but the mammogram showed nothing. She was then sent for a biopsy and another ultrasound which concluded that she had a 3.5cm tumor that was cancer. The doctor wanted to do surgery right away but I think she was in denial. She was not happy with her doctor so decided to get another opinion. By the time she met with her current doctor, the tumor grew to 5.5cm. Now, they are doing Chemo first and then surgery. She doesn't know if she is HER2+ or hormone receptor +. I can't imagine not knowing the final diagnosis but knowing I had a fast growing tumor in my breast. I would want them to just cut it off! What a worry that would be! She is someone that is in a low risk category too. Breast cancer is not in her family history (just like me), she eats only organic and she is a fitness buff! It's scary that you can be so healthy and still get this disease. I said to Jason when we were driving home...you think you have it bad until you hear someone else's story! I can't imagine what she must be going through...the not knowing how big this thing is going to get before they remove it. So many things to worry about! I probably won't see her again because my treatments will be a week after hers. But I only hope the best for her and will pray for her every night!
Be strong, stay positive and please pray for me and Sue-Lynn!
I went for my Chemo treatment yesterday at 8:30am. I had my blood work done and after waiting an hour for results the doctor told me I couldn't receive my Chemo because my Neutrophils were too low. Neutrophils are types of mature white blood cells which fight off infection. If I were to receive Chemo when these are low, I would get really sick and my body would take a lot longer to recover. I asked the nurse if it was something that I did and she said no but that I do have to rest more. I have been doing a lot lately! I have been mowing the lawn, running errands, cleaning the house and getting ready for Halloween. I did a lot of that my second week after my last Chemo. I was too tired last week to do much of anything, but I still did some running around and cleaning. The nurse told me I have to do NOTHING all week and they will check my counts again on Friday, November 9th. This totally sucks because it was a milestone for me! It was my third and final treatment of FEC (the type of Chemo that makes me really sick). I just want to stay on schedule and get this over with! This is another reason why I can't really see people because it could compromise my counts and then prolong my treatments. I just can't take that risk! So like I said, I am scheduled for treatment this Friday and hopefully my counts will be high enough to get it.
I met another mother at the hospital yesterday that has breast cancer too. She is 41 and has a 7 year old daughter and a 5 year old son. She found the lump a couple of months ago and when the doctor did an ultrasound and mammogram, the ultrasound showed something but the mammogram showed nothing. She was then sent for a biopsy and another ultrasound which concluded that she had a 3.5cm tumor that was cancer. The doctor wanted to do surgery right away but I think she was in denial. She was not happy with her doctor so decided to get another opinion. By the time she met with her current doctor, the tumor grew to 5.5cm. Now, they are doing Chemo first and then surgery. She doesn't know if she is HER2+ or hormone receptor +. I can't imagine not knowing the final diagnosis but knowing I had a fast growing tumor in my breast. I would want them to just cut it off! What a worry that would be! She is someone that is in a low risk category too. Breast cancer is not in her family history (just like me), she eats only organic and she is a fitness buff! It's scary that you can be so healthy and still get this disease. I said to Jason when we were driving home...you think you have it bad until you hear someone else's story! I can't imagine what she must be going through...the not knowing how big this thing is going to get before they remove it. So many things to worry about! I probably won't see her again because my treatments will be a week after hers. But I only hope the best for her and will pray for her every night!
Be strong, stay positive and please pray for me and Sue-Lynn!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)